This letter was not a sweet love letter. It was a rant. I was so frustrated and it just boiled over. It wasn’t a mean, nasty letter though, just a cry for help. Literally.
I wrote it in the midst of my anger. I know, I know, that’s a no-no, but my hands found a pen and paper soon followed and next thing I knew I wrote a letter and before I could second guess myself, I put it in his office and shut the door.
I put the letter out of my mind because he needed to read what I had to say. I worried how he would react because he doesn’t do well when it comes to feelings. Surprisingly he reacted better than I expected. The letter seemed to help some (that’s assuming he could actually read it [I have messy handwriting that only gets worse when I’m upset]).
Tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to improve what we effed up today.
I hope everyone had a fun and safe Halloween. We got sprinkled on, but that did not discourage our little pirate fairy or ninja turtle. Batman wasn’t too happy, but he was in a stroller the whole time so he got over it lol. Our dog was SUPER excited until she got wet and no one stopped to pet her, then she just sulked until we got back home.
I got asked a few times what my costume was. I’m wearing yoga pants, my husband’s hoodie, and my hair up in my classic messy bun. I told everyone I was “Mombie”. Damn, I should have brought a coffee mug.
Anywho, again, I hope you guys had fun and stayed safe. Don’t eat any candy that looks like it was tampered with. You just never know these days.
I took my littlest one to the doctor today. He’s fallen below the growth chart for his weight. All my kids have been “problem children” in this department because they’re tall and skinny and were mostly breastfed. My supply has never been very good so I’d have to supplement formula. Anyway, as for my little guy’s weight he’s a bit different than the others. He’ll eat whatever I give him pretty much whenever I give it to him. It seems like he’s always hungry and he poops 5-6 times a freaking day! So I’m like, what the heck?
The doctor’s thoughts are that his body isn’t absorbing the necessary amount of nutrients from what he’s eating which accounts for both the lack of weight gain and numerous poops.
I feel so terrible. Am I doing something wrong? I give him 3-4 bottles a day (4-6oz) and I feed him 3 times a day with snacks in between. This kid is eating all the time. This stresses me out so bad, I always feel like I’m failing my kids in one way or another.
Other than his low weight though, his doctor says clearly a happy and healthy baby. Hopefully we’ll get answers soon so we can get his weight up.
The icing on the cake of all this mess, he got three shots today 😥 one of which being the flu shot and I think it’s making him not feel so good. *sigh* poor, sweet boy.
After my doctor appointment I had some errands to take care of on base. By time I was done it was heavy traffic time to leave base. I’m at the very back of the line.
It was a really lovely day today, so I had my music turned up and my windows rolled down. All was going so well when suddenly I see this…this THING scurry so fast down the windshield directly in front of me! at first I thought it was inside and about to drop down in my lap so, naturally, I let out a terrified, blood curdling scream. There were two uniformed men walking just ahead and they looked back at me and asked if I was ok. To terrified to take my eyes off the spider, but HIGHLY embarrassed they actually heard me scream, I sheepishly call out, “I’m fine!” in a cracking voice that sounds like it’s coming from a prepubescent boy rather than a grown woman.
For what seemed like an eternity (but really I think it was roughly two seconds) I started at the creature, willing it to die right before my eyes when, suddenly, I had a stroke of genius! I’ll turn on the wipers with the wiper fluid! So I turned on the wipers, but I turned it the wrong way so no fluid came out. Well, this just pissed the creepy-crawly off and he headed right for my open window. With another terrified scream I pull up on the button so the automatic window would come up. I’m sweating bullets because this window is not going up fast enough. Had it been a manual window I could have had it up in no time.
Finally with window closed, but it looked like the spider may have come inside! I feel I should remind you, I am in very slow moving traffic, but the traffic is moving so I’m trying to do all this while controlling a vehicle. I’m freaking out trying to inspect to see if the creeper is inside and then he DISAPPEARED! I had a moment of panic, but then realized thats a good sign, it means he’s outside. I keep looking back at the window to see if I can see any signs of the spider, but I never do. When I got home and it was time for me to get out of the car I squealed as I got out as quickly as I could, slammed the door, then high-tailed it to my front door.
I need for it to snow now so these freaking things will leave me the hell alone!
Good news, I (finally) met with the doctor and she has agreed to tie my tubes. I explained everything to her, she asked me a few questions just to be sure I’m 100% informed and ready for this procedure and with no issue she agreed. FINALLY! It only took two effing years!!
Bad news, the earliest availability for my surgery isn’t until mid January. We might get transferred before my surgery date…
But there is a small chance we’ll still be here. We won’t know anything for about two more weeks, so prepare yourselves for some erratic behavior from me because I don’t know how much more back and forth BS I can take.
My two year old son walked in on Daddy going potty the other day. This is the first time he’s seen Daddy do it and this was his reaction (according to my husband):
Son: Daddy, spill? Oh no! Spill!!
(walks over closer to Daddy and sees what’s really happening)
Daddy….(points at the source then to the toilet then back to the source) Water? Daddy spill water!
He’s been sitting on his potty to pee, or at least try to pee, but yesterday when he told me he needed to potty he just stood in front of his potty. The look on his face was like he was waiting for something magical to happen lol. Potty training a boy is a totally different world compared to potty training a girl.
Something started working for me.
My husband was scheduled to go to a gun shoot the same day as my appointment. Gun qualifications take place two states away. Granted, that’s only about six hours around here in the congested part of the East Coast, but still, it’s enough to mess up my appointment.
Well, I don’t know how he did it, but he was somehow able to get out of the gun shoot! Which means (as long as they don’t cancel on me again) I’ll be able to make it to my appointment and hopefully get the ball rolling with this tubal ligation I’ve been fighting for.
One less thing for me to stress out about.